Fred Toucher returns to Sports activities Hub morning present, explains absence and regarding tweets


Toucher mentioned he appreciated what number of listeners reached out and expressed concern.

Fred Toucher.
Fred Toucher is a co-host for The Sports activities Hub’s morning drive program. The Boston Globe

Fred Toucher returned to 98.5 The Sports activities Hub’s “Toucher and Wealthy” program Friday, revealing that he had checked himself into an alcohol remedy facility after posting alarming, since-deleted feedback on social media over Memorial Day weekend.

Toucher, who had been absent from the air all week till Friday, defined what had occurred on the high of the present at 6 a.m. and elaborated additional within the 8 a.m. hour, saying he was in a darkish place however that he by no means had any intention of harming himself.

“As you realize, I’m going via a divorce,’’ mentioned Toucher, who has obtained remedy for alcohol dependency previously and has additionally handled throat issues and present tumult over the previous a number of months. “The explanation I carry that up is that half the time I dwell alone, with out my children, all proper. So then there was the entire throat factor with the doable most cancers, and I used to be out of labor for 5 weeks, and there was a number of time alone.

“And in the direction of the top of that, I began getting … feeling … actually darkish. Exploring darkish stuff on the web. My temper was shifting into being very darkish. I knew one thing was going to occur.”

Toucher mentioned he known as his dad Wednesday to return stick with him. His dad deliberate to fly in Sunday.

“Certain sufficient, on Saturday, I relapsed fully and all that darkness comes out,’’ mentioned Toucher. “For some motive I tweet one thing that’s in my thoughts on the time in all probability very intelligent and really darkish humor and ‘Ooh, what’s he speaking about?, that within the mild of day I noticed was not intelligent in any respect and was silly and really freaked some folks out.

“So what I did was, I mentioned, ‘All proper, right here’s what I can do.  I can keep dwelling, and the seemingly state of affairs for this can be that I’ll learn this once more, I’ll change into embarrassed, and I’ll drink, and that can simply make issues a thousand instances worse. And it’ll simply feed on itself till one thing actually unhealthy occurs.”

So Toucher checked himself right into a detoxing facility.

“Mainly what I used to be doing was voluntarily locking myself up so I knew that I wouldn’t drink anymore,’’ he mentioned. “I used to be like, ‘All proper, I’ve misplaced management, I’ve misplaced management of alcohol, I’m not pondering like me.’

Toucher mentioned when a affected person checks into detox, the keep should final 72 hours. As a result of he checked in over the vacation weekend, he mentioned, his first two days there didn’t rely.

“Was it enjoyable? It was the worst 5 days of my whole life,’’ he mentioned. “I obtained out [Thursday] morning. It’s important to perceive I had not been ingesting for very lengthy, so my detox ended, realistically, Tuesday morning. So I used to be simply sitting round. And I couldn’t go away.”

Toucher mentioned he appreciated what number of listeners reached out and expressed concern.

“In all truthfulness, I had no intention of wounding myself. … But it surely was simply all in all a very dumb factor to do, that solely a darkish, drunken thoughts would provide you with. And to me, that was like, ‘All proper, that’s it.’”

Toucher mentioned that when he obtained out of the power Thursday, he went on to an outpatient facility after which to see his therapist.

“I’ve a plan. The thought is rarely to drink once more. … I simply can’t deal with it. It’s no excuse, however that point alone, and the whole lot increase — the scare of the most cancers, and the loneliness of the divorce, and all of the crap that you simply hear and the whole lot that was occurring, it simply saved stacking and stacking and stacking.”

On Wednesday, co-host Wealthy Shertenlieb — who had a beforehand scheduled absence Friday and was not a part of the present — had provided a short, vaguely detailed acknowledgement of Toucher’s absence, concluding by saying, ‘When you’re listening, Fred, we’re all rooting for you.”